Monday, March 31, 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
- I'm not very good at being my own boss. I don't listen to myself or follow my directions at all. I may need to hire someone to boss me around and make me get busy on my novel (no volunteers, please).
- I'd rather start new novels than persevere and finish the old ones. I'm on chapter 6 of Sea Billows (title in progress), and I'm fighting the urge to abandon it and start one of five other story ideas I have in my idea book.
- I'm overwhelmed by the very intimidating writing/publishing world. Most of this is just fear of the unknown, and it's getting better as I am around other authors more. At least I figured out what WIP means - it's a start.
- I'm afraid that I'm wasting my time writing novels. I really love doing it, but that's part of the problem. I feel this weird "mom guilt" about spending my time doing things I like to do. I'm actually getting teary while I'm writing this. I may need to contact Dr. Phil about this one.
- I'm terrified about the prospect of actually trying to get a novel published. I think I'm one of those people that doesn't try anything unless I'm pretty sure I'll succeed, and I have very little confidence about getting a book published.
Okay, so the list basically boils down to laziness and fear - two things specifically addressed in the Bible. Good thing I have one of those handy!
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Mason and I officially have a new favorite movie. We watched Enchanted the other night (and the next day, and the next...) and LOVED it. This clip of Pip the chipmunk makes Mason wet his pants every time he sees it - literally. Oh, and Jas was friends with that guy in college - not the chipmunk - the prince (James Marsden).
Today is the 2 week anniversary of Mason's surgery. I realized today that he's eating a lot better than he was before. I just thought he was going through a light-eating phase, but there were many times that he complained about feeling sick at his stomach. Ever since they let him eat after surgery, he has devoured every meal and wanted more. He also still hasn't coughed at all - Praise the Lord!
Carter is eating better, too. I was having problems getting him to eat anything even halfway healthy - for at least a couple of months. He wouldn't eat any meat or vegetables - he just wanted the bread and fruit from his plate. He would also try to "graze" on snacks all day long. I have a childproof lock on the pantry, but somehow I would find Carter eating out of a cereal box every time I turned around. Since he's been back from G&G Camp, he's been eating just about everything I put in front of him. He even ate the Italian Steak and Pasta I made last night, even though it was pretty spicy. He scooped up the zucchini, mushrooms, and steak pieces right along with his pasta. Mason, on the other hand, promptly picked out the zucchini and mushrooms.
We started Operation No More Binky once again today. So far I've managed to convince him that his Binky is for bedtime - it's only been one morning, but he's taking it fairly well. He points to the counter and whines, "Biiiiinkyyy," every now and then, but he goes to another activity when I remind him that it's for bedtime. We'll see how long it lasts. He may be the only kid in kindergarten with a pacifier in his backpack.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Mason is having a great time showing all the relatives his "zipper" (surgery incision). He's so much more energetic now. He's also testing the limits a little in the discipline area, but I think that will get better when he goes back to school and really gets back into his routine.
I have yet another business idea that popped into my head this morning. I've had a plethora (Three Amigos reference) of ideas over the years, but haven't acted on most of them. I come by that naturally - my mom always has bright ideas that she doesn't follow through with. She swears she invented Pull-Ups in the 80s, and someone stole her idea. Anyway, I'm excited enough about this one to start working on it, but I may be too busy with freelance writing to do much with it for awhile.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
On a completely different subject, I realized today why women haven't historically been involved in politics. I had to do a Google search to find out who Ron Paul was when I saw several bumper stickers with his name and the words 'President 2008.' I thought it was that cross-dresser from the 90s, so I was very confused. But then I realized that I was thinking of Ru Paul. Anyway, I was embarrassed to be so clueless, but then it hit me. I've been too busy with real life to follow the political scene very closely - even if it is an election year. I know about Obama's pastor, Hillary's ratings problems, and McCain's...well, I know he's running for president. But other than quick media soundbites that I catch in passing (when Diego and Elmo aren't on TV), I don't know much. So, my theory is that women throughout history have always been too busy taking care of kids, cooking, cleaning, milking cows, darning socks, etc. to pay much attention to politics. I'm sure there were very intelligent women who didn't recognize George Washington's name when he was nominated for president. Now that he's on a quarter, he's easier to recognize.
Monday, March 17, 2008
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Thursday, March 13, 2008
I forgot to say yesterday that Mason told me the doctors and nurses were trying to kill him. They kept taking off the dressing over his chest tube hole, and he didn't think they needed to do that anymore. When the nurse left, he told me that the doctors and nurses thought they knew what they were doing, but they really didn't. When I told him that they were trying to help him, he said very emphatically, "They're NOT trying to help me, they're trying to kill me." He wasn't very happy with me when I laughed. He's been very friendly and talkative with everyone today, though, although he thinks they should just let us go home today if we're going home tomorrow anyway. I know he's back to normal when he's being bossy and opinionated. Gotta' go - people waiting for a computer in this lab.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
The worst part of the day was when Mason woke up with the breathing tube still in and freaked out. I was a nervous wreck until they got that out. Actually the very worst part of the day, and night, was the fact that Mason couldn't have anything to drink or eat for 4 hours after surgery - even though he was terribly thirsty and asked for a drink every 30 seconds. When he did finally get some sips of water and ice chips, he threw up. So we had to wait until morning to try again. Even this morning, when he was supposed to be able to drink and eat, we had to wait for the nurses to take out his wires and tubes before they would let him have anything. It was so sad to see his poor little, pitiful expression when he asked for the ten thousandth time if he could have a drink.
The good news is that he is now able to eat and drink without throwing up, and he has all of his lines and tubes out - except his main IV. He's in a regular room - out of the noisy ICU. We had a small issue with his chest tube "hole" - it was bleeding really badly for awhile. But the surgeon came right away and helped us get it under control. Everyone here is unbelievably kind and attentive. We feel very blessed! Thanks so much to everyone who has sent us prayers, and support - we appreciate it more than you'll ever know!!
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Okay - I just called, and the nurse to to go ahead and go to Dallas. The ICU situation is still "tight," but Dr. Leonard wants to do Mason's pre-op tomorrow morning as planned.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Speaking of Jas, it's his birthday today. Or...yesterday, I guess, now that it's after midnight. He's getting a Go, Diego, Go pizza party this weekend with Carter in Norman. I can't believe it's already this particular weekend. We leave for Dallas from Norman on Sunday, and Mason's surgery is Tuesday. How did the time go so fast?
There is actually a chance we'll have to postpone the surgery. Mason's illness/fever carried over into the "10-day window" before the surgery that he's supposed to be completely healthy. He went for a blood test and checkup today, and everything looks good so far. The doctors in Dallas will be the final judges of the prognosis, though. Also, the ICU at Children's is full, and we have to postpone Mason's surgery if it's still full by Sunday. Should be interesting.